Wasting Time

Okay, I having put things on here is a while.

Anyways, so far, I have been wasting time online, Youtube, Hulu, and stupid stuff.

I really need to stay focus now:

1. physical
2. financial
3. personal

Focus focus focus.

Tutoring

Maybe I should tutor on the side.

Tire of Looking

I am so tire now, looking for a girl that I love. :(

Mad

I don't know why, but I am still mad at my mom.

I started being angry at her because she would not allow me to start my business. She wanted me to get marry instead.

Well, first of all, I would need a girl to marry to, which I do not at this time. What makes me angry is that she thinks that I am not looking, that I am just going and hanging out and doing stuff with my friends, and not focusing on it.

I am looking for a nice girl, however, just have not found her yet. But in the mean time, it is a topic that is creating tension between my mom and I.

Furthermore, she does not have the same idea as I am. I want to work on my financial situation, however, she does not see that. She would like me to start my family, which I believe it is very important, however, I do not have a girl right now; so I believe that in the mean time, I should focus on my financial life.

I am really angry that she would not allow me to make some financial decisions. Basically what this does was make me come to the conclusion that when it comes to finance, I will have to do it by myself. So that was what I did. And then it lead to my thinking that I can make any decisions myself without consulting her.

This basically created this sort of double life for the both of us.

I don't like this at all. It makes me angry at her and maybe now at me too.

To Do

I want to live in the Southern Hemisphere for a year, just for the experience.

Marriage

Today, I get the marriage talk again.

My mom just really really wants me to get marry. I can understand her feelings. She is a HMONG mother, and on top of that she is just worry about me.

However, a big part of me believes that she wants me to get marry simply because of social norms. I hope that is not the case.

I just don't feel ready right now. I guess in a way, and in comparison to some of my friends, I should be ready to get marry, but I just do not feel ready. Its not like I am not keeping my eyes out I am, but I just need to be more financially solid first.

Oh well, can't do anything about it now. Need to seriously work my financial goals now.

Feeling Down

I was feeling good when I decided to train for a 5k run. However, after our first practice run at lake Mira Mar, I felt a sharp pain on my left foot.

At first I thought it was a minor muscle problem. However, here I am two weeks later and it still hurts.

Now I am feeling down. I felt like I have failed and now is failing at other aspects of my life too. I think I will clean my room tomorrow for sure, and make myself a gym schedule again.

Tomorrow is a new day, I will take it.

Health Care Summit

I actually spent 7 hours yesterday watching the Health Care Summit.

The media said that it did not make a difference, however, I believed that it did. I understood the health care bill better after the summit.

I believe that with the complexity of the health care system, most people just do not understand the health care bill; and then adding the Republican's scare tactics makes it even more confusing.

But by having the summit, I was able to better understand the concerns of both parties.

Wish it can be shorter though.

Longest Relationship

My sister asked me why I dated this one girl for so long. I always make up stories, but I know the real reason was very simple, it was because I was able to be a kid around that girl, be my inner self and not have to worry about what others were thinking.

That was why I was and am still very much in love with her after all these years.

Our love story was very much like a fairy tail or those Korean love stories, however, at the end, it did not work out.

I guess like they say, it was not meant to be.

But, I very much did enjoy the time shared, though sometimes I still hate her. :p

Being Productive

I become a lot more productive when I have more to do.

My Sassy Girl

I told a friend to watch My Sassy Girl yesterday, cause she seems to be like that girl. But I ended up watching it again.

The movie it self was pretty good, however, things like that do not happen in reality. If you are gone for 2-3 years without seeing each other, feelings change.

I had a similar relationship. I was fun, filled with excitement and drama and everything like that. If there was a camera following me around, it would have been a great movie. But the ending did not end well.

In the end, its a bitter and realistic break up, not like the movies. Actually, if we get back together, it would have been like the movies, but I do not see that happening.

I think the movies, especially the chick flicks are the love stories that we would like to have, or at least to pursue.

Have fun with your pursuit everyone. :p

Utterly Direct

For some reason, I have become utterly direct with people. Sometimes thats not so good.

I think its because of my pass experience, most likely cause of my crazy ex. I think I played her psychological games too much during the relationship. It was fun at the time because I was up for a challenge. But I think I over did it; so now is tire and had became utterly direct with people.

Holding Hands

Remember your first girlfriend or boyfriend back in high school?

I remember us holding hands at Bayside Community Center. It was intense. We were in love.

Now that I think about it, it was really silly. Regardless, it felt real at the time.

Nowadays, it felt like there has been no true love, or it just become so complex that people are just exhausted by it, at least based on my experience anyways. Or maybe I am just getting tire of looking.

Nevertheless, I think that my simple and silly love in high school was more true than complex modern love...MAYBE.

Define Life by Girlfriends

I have been known to have defined my life, or the various life experiences that I had by the girls that I dated.

I guess, in a way, I do not go out much, unless I am dating, and so it would seem that I truly only go out when I am dating.

Modern Love

I saw "The Office" today.

I was thinking to myself that it was nice that Pam and Jim had a good relationship. I think that society (America) has become way too casual about relationship that it the foundation of a family is become a victim.

We need Pam and Jim right now.

First Post

Okay, so just want to say hi to bloggers out there.

im blogging now to waste time, and maybe to record some of my thoughts somewhere. Too lazy yo write it in a book, so thought this will be better.

have fun bloogers.