Mad

I don't know why, but I am still mad at my mom.

I started being angry at her because she would not allow me to start my business. She wanted me to get marry instead.

Well, first of all, I would need a girl to marry to, which I do not at this time. What makes me angry is that she thinks that I am not looking, that I am just going and hanging out and doing stuff with my friends, and not focusing on it.

I am looking for a nice girl, however, just have not found her yet. But in the mean time, it is a topic that is creating tension between my mom and I.

Furthermore, she does not have the same idea as I am. I want to work on my financial situation, however, she does not see that. She would like me to start my family, which I believe it is very important, however, I do not have a girl right now; so I believe that in the mean time, I should focus on my financial life.

I am really angry that she would not allow me to make some financial decisions. Basically what this does was make me come to the conclusion that when it comes to finance, I will have to do it by myself. So that was what I did. And then it lead to my thinking that I can make any decisions myself without consulting her.

This basically created this sort of double life for the both of us.

I don't like this at all. It makes me angry at her and maybe now at me too.